I have heard a lot of people say they experienced some form of trauma from church. I experienced some myself, so I believe you when you say your PTSD is real. And it just occurred to me I can't think of one case where PTSD came from liberal churches. There may be some, but I haven't heard of any. It always seems to come from conservative and evangelical churches. One of my principles for recovery is God is for your healing and mental health, not against it. Church should promote healing and recovery, not trauma. I was fortunate to find churches in my journey that did that. But whatever you need to do for your recovery, don't be ashamed and don't let anyone make you feel guilty for it.